So this is it….

Today is August 10th, 2015. I’m not sure how things got to where it is today. I’m not lost, yet I’m not found. I’m merely drifting in empty space. I’m okay with that. I haven’t given up hope. I know it sounds juvenile and frankly stupid as everyone else has all but given up; everyone but me. And really, that’s all that needs to believe! Time, oh time. You’ve once again proven to be wise. The last 2 months I’ve spent working on identifying myself: Who am I? What do I want? Am I happy with who I am? I’m almost hesitant to say that I’m becoming satisfied with my answers. A lot of good people left my life the last couple years. One of which, was my fault. I’m happy to say, that although the bridge isn’t mended they’re back in my life. For one, she was in my life when I was lost and needed guidance. She came like a blessing or guardian angles walking me to the right path 5 years ago. I’m not sure how it happened or how it ended, but what I do know is the moments we shared were never to be forgotten. Now she’s going through a hell hole of problems. I will not allow her to do this on her own. I owe her at least that much. The second one, well, she’s a bit of problem. A good problem. She was my best friend, she was a great person, great heart. I made a mistake and asked her to leave my life. I regretted it from the moment I said it. Will we ever be how we were? Yes. But she’ll never forget what I did, and I’m okay with that! As for everything else…. -- Even in the darkest night, the sun has always risen --